It really sucks that no matter how long someone has been in your life you will never entirely know them. You can be so sure of who they are and then they do something and they’re a stranger and you feel like everything you have known and loved about them is a lie or was never true and then you question if you ever knew them and you feel so lonely. I feel like I care about people too much and all I get told lately is to not care , let people get on with their own shit but that’s not who I am? I don’t want things to change. I don’t want people to turn into strangers. I want to be an old lady with my family close to me and the same friends talking about back in the day. I’m just so confused. People hurt.
Something about sundays turns me into a total housewife. Currently cooking a chicken dinner, whilst sorting my boyfriends laundry and cleaning….what is this.
I just remembered that there’s a massive chance that I will have my own place within the next few months. Happy again. That’s pretty much all I’ve wanted for as long as I can remember. I can’t wait to be free of so much bullshit.
Is withholding a truth the same as lying? I’m not sure but I’m feeling rather annoyed. Trying to work on my trust issues and this isn’t helping one bit.
I have a bad habit of writing lyrics and quotations that stick in my head on the nearest wall to me. Sometimes I love words so much I want to live in them.
Been thinking about a lot of things lately like what’s important to me and now I know, I know what needs to change in my life. I need to not let this stupid pointless job take over my life because that will never be worth it. I do need to find a way of making more cash but on my own terms. I have another job that gets me by and as much as I want to move out, I’m going to be content with getting by for now. All I want from my life is to be happy, experience things and spend time with the people I love. I’m not throwing that away for anything.
Sooonish. My mum just got me this voucher thing that means I basically have a 4star hotel to stay at for an evening, with a 3 course dinner and complimentary breakfast ;) Checcck me. It’s been a few years since I’ve entered that beautiful city and I get to take my boyfriend and show him around since he’s never been. HAPPY!
In all honesty I don’t think I could ever be a lesbian. Women are beautiful and everything but nothing beats a penis.
I think I’m developing a phobia of eyebrows. Everywhere I look they are becoming more dominant and no one seems to notice how bloody stupid they look. What if it’s some form of alien attack mutating peoples faces until they are all just walking eyebrows…
Must love led Zeppelin, film and not be a trendbandwhore. Must be available for drinking sessions, massive rants and general best friend duties.